Update

As you've noticed, or not noticed maybe, I haven't blogged for a few days. There are a few things going on. My father in law was admitted to the hospital for an emergency triple bypass surgery on Friday. My mom left for the airport on Sunday and I drove her to Sacramento (3 hours from me), spent the night in a hotel and drive home the next day.

Those are two of the reasons I haven't blogged, but the third reason is probably the biggest: I've lost my motivation. I haven't lost my interest, not by a long shot. But I feel like I'm wasting my time. I guess I thought people would read and comment and interact and I would feel like I was making a difference, or at least entertaining people. But I don't think anybody reads this except for my husband (Thank you for your support honey. I love you). I didn't realize how time consuming this would be when I started. Each blog takes me between 1 and 3 hours to put together. I have to do the research, compile it in a format that I think will be interesting and have continuity, find video (which means watching each potential one to see if it's what I'm looking for), find pictures that depict the animal in the most interesting way, cite my sources, proofread it, copy it from my word document and past it here, then edit it (because it doesn't paste certain features from Word) and post it.

I don't think that effort would bother me if it served the intended purpose. I guess I feel like I'm talking to myself. In the case that somebody stumbles across this who doesn't know me, I am a stay at home mom of 5 kids. I am busy. I am constantly being pulled in 5 (or more) different directions. I have to sacrifice my time for this blog, for what is starting to seem like no reason.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I don't want to quit. I want to see this through. The only way I can figure to keep myself doing this blog is to take the time frame off. I wanted to do this in one year. That, I think, is unrealistic for somebody with my lifestyle. I think it would be best for me to work on it in my spare time. Then, I wouldn't feel like I was taking away from my family and other responsibilities to do it, and if nobody reads it, it may not feel so much like a waste of time.

I figure that if I don't remove the one year time frame, I will end up getting so far behind that I will feel there's no way to catch up, and I'll just quit all together. So I'm going to try this. I'm going to remove the time frame and not feel obligated to blog every day.